Mercy Said No!

     The light is all around me, his hand holding my heart. Gently he holds me as though I’m a delicate rose. He tells me of all the beauty his eyes behold and yet I see it not. I know it’s there right in front of me and I know he’s there always holding me. He’s God, Jesus, whom I love. I love but I don’t understand why I’m so confused. The hurts of my life overwhelm me, and my soul is so burdened to the point that I can’t see. The light was all about me roaming before my very eyes. The truth does not deny me and now I realize. The Devil had used me, he sent darkness in disguise.

     He came as an Angle of light and everything, yes everything, about that moment had seemed so right. But now there’s a hope, a love beyond compare because Jesus the Savior was standing right there. His arms stretched opened as his heart cried out, “Come let me love you, please don’t lose hope. I have a passion for you that drives my soul. It drove me to die for you and it drove me to rise for you. My friend, I’ve paid the price for you! Now it’s all up to you, please, come let me love you.” His heart screaming with heart filled tears, his soul crying for me to hear.

     When the moment grew cold, he was there. When my heart broke again, he was there. When the tears flowed, he was there, but all I heard was hopeless terrors. Sorrow overcame and rage took control, hurt burst forth from me and pain suppressed my soul. Then death moved in to take me BUT mercy said NO! I thank my Jesus that mercy said no. The Lord took away death’s vicious sting, and its wrath my Jesus cast far from me. He opened my eyes to that which I could not see and what stood before me frightened me. What I once had seen as a friend glowed in a new light with a sword now in his hands. On his forehead, I read the name, Suicide, and tears began to flow from my eyes, as I realized how he had lied. As I shifted my gaze to his sword’s blade I was aghast as, on it, I had read my own name.

      At that moment I dropped to my knees and praised sweet Jesus for sparing me. He spared me from my own deception due to the fact of my own perceptions. He taught me to see with new eyes and explained to me things I had never realized. But it took me humbling my own heart and trusting his lead through all the dark. I am so grateful my Jesus intervened; I am so grateful he stopped me. I thank my Lord for the love he did sow and  I Thank my Lord Jesus that His mercy said no!

Author William Marchbanks